Friday, January 7, 2011

He Never Let Go

I was raised in a christian family and went to a born-again, mission-minded christian church for all of my childhood.  I took it all to heart, accepted Jesus as my savior and was water baptised when I was 12yrs. old. In my teen years, I faced some difficult choices but through the support of my family, friends and church, my faith grew strong.  Then, somewhere along the way, I began to lose it.  Things weren't going the way I'd planned, life took some turns, so I took things into my own hands.  I took God out of the driver's seat and put myself there instead.  Big mistake.  It wasn't long before I stopped attending church regularly and I didn't return for many years.  During that time, my family almost split up and I began to question who I really was.  Perhaps I was too "straight-laced" after all, perhaps I needed to loosen up a bit and have fun.  There's nothing wrong with having fun but I had learned to compromise and to justify doing things I once thought were wrong. I felt so alone. But, God was still drawing me.  He was that still, small voice in the back of my mind.  Thoughts would come to me about things I had learned as a child in Sunday School; I would remember something my Pastor had taught years ago; I would hear songs that would prick my heart; I would see old friends in the store and go out of my way to avoid them.  I knew I needed to get right with God. Still I waited. Then, I faced a crossroad, a trial that shook me to my core and forced me to really make a decision about my life.  What did I really believe?  What did I really want?  It was time to get serious.  I chose to go back to church and get my life right with God.  I knew that I would find my help there as I always had before, where the word of God that was brought always seemed to minister right to me, whatever my need was.  And it was still there. I was encouraged to really seek God for myself, to really have that personal relationship with Him.  I'm far from perfect, believe me, I mess up a lot. Like I said, I am a "work in progress".  But I know I'm heading in the right direction and I trust God who is once again in the driver's seat.  I encourage you to do the same-really make time to pray daily and read your Bible. If you don't know who God is, he's just a prayer away.  He loves you and wants to give you joy and peace in your life.  I served God for 20+ years and I find that only now do I feel I'm just beginning to get to know Him.  My desire is different.  I went through some things, learned some hard lessons, so I appreciate his great love for me so much more now.  Though I failed Him, still He never failed me.  He never let go of my hand. My desire is not to preach to you but to just share my experience, with the hope that you might gain something from it and be encouraged today.  Thanks for taking the time to read my post today.  God Bless you.

Why a blog?

Ok.  So why did I really start this blog?  Well, I joined Facebook just last year and found I simply had  much more to say than space allowed there. I love to stay in touch with friends, but I really wanted to say something that would enable me to encourage someone else.  I also started reading a book by Elizabeth George, entitled Beautiful in God's Eyes.  It's a study on Proverbs 31 in the Bible.  Are you familiar with it? Well, this book discusses in detail the characteristics and virtues of a woman who is beautiful in God's eyes; something we all would like to be.  Well, one chapter dealt with finding "something personal" that was your "niche" and getting creative with it.  Thus, the idea of this blog was formed.  You see, as a woman I wear many hats.  I cook, clean, wipe away tears, love, make lists, plan meals, shop, do laundry, manage the finances, etc. but I never seemed to excel in any one specific area.  (I am a "work in progress.")  Anyway, I have always loved to write and in my younger years I kept my journal writing religiously.  So perhaps. with this blog, I have found  my "something personal" after all."  Do you know what your "thing" is?  It might take some real soul-searching, but I encourage you to find that special something that you are good at and get creative with it and see what happens.  You might be surprised at what you discover.     

My "Something Personal"

First off, I'd like to say Welcome and Thank you for visiting my blog on this, my first day of blogging.  Let me tell you a little about who I am and what this blog is all about.  My name is Tammy and I feel blessed to be a wife and mother of three.  I count those roles to be of utmost importance in my life.  I am also a christian and my heart's desire is to be everything God wants me to be.  I don't claim to be an authority on ANYTHING!- I am nowhere near perfect.  My life is a journey, always "in progress".  I'm just an ordinary mom trying to get through ordinary days the best way I can.  I hope that through this blog, you find something beneficial that you can use in your everyday life. Whether you're single, married, have no children or 20, I hope you find something to be helpful. There'll be ideas on homemaking, childcare, marriage, nurtrition, budgeting, as well as some personal thoughts.  Please feel free to visit me here anytime and share your thoughts as well.  We'll put on some coffee, pull up a chair and have some "girl talk".  If you'd like to leave a comment or have a topic discussed, I'd love to hear from you.